Why do I feel 500 times more heart broken when the girl i fell in love with left me for a lesbian rather than?

Why do I feel 500 times more heart broken when the girl i fell in love with left me for a lesbian rather than a man????????

Do you think this is my Karma for jacking off while watching lesbian porn???

I mean, I really get turned on by the sexual part of it…

… but when I want to connect to a particular girl, it really broke my heart…….

I mean...... it really breaks my heart soooo bad to know a girl is a lesbian, rather than being taken by a man.....

it really sucks.....

i wish i was a lesbian..............

This is a psychological question...... is there something wrong with me?

How do I approach this??